Dear Fans,
I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.
It's so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It's like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don't know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn't be here.
Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don't think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn't know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.
This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person...it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.
I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter...to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a "*****."
I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.
I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.
I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want...and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That's ***'s job. I can't wait to meet him...or her.
Love, Britney
Quote of the month...
It is ok to disagree with people regarding certain issues. You’re not being true to yourself if you succumb to others opinions because you feel guilty.






I feel that this was totally uncalled for, especially the part about her sons being asleep.

fixed it

It's hard to read your color, especially in large amounts of text.

Celebrities going crazy on the internets is the new thing.

So is passing out doped out on cocaine.

LOL THE "A" LIST

I think it's a pretty interesting letter, to be honest.

I didn't know Britney was literate.

Yeah, I was surprised by the punctuation, too.

Good for her. It's rare to see stars reach out every now and then.

That totally went through an editor.

I doub't she wrote any part of that.

Ghostwriter all the way.

And yeah, what the **** was up with the bit about her sons? As if I honestly give a **** at what time she feels it appropriate to subdue her sons.

In another surprise news story!

Paris Hilton released after serving only a few days in jail?! Learn more about this truly "shocking" news story as it unfolds!

Life is just so... Crazy!

Yeah, she goes on about how shes goin to a normal jail and she is just like everyone else.....3 days later she throws a hissy fit and shes back home. What a waste of human flesh.

She's going back to court today and hopefully back to jail soon.

Beat me to it ;_;

I really dont care what happens to paris. She could die and you wouldnt see a tear come out of me. =)

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Originally Posted by The Sniper I really dont care what happens to paris. She could die and you wouldnt see a tear come out of me. =)

Same here. I don't like her.

As for Britney, her letters is cute. It's sad we don't know if she really wrote it though. I knew she'd make one. After all the stupid stuff she did, she had no choice but to write to her fans.

She got sent back to jail. Womp womp womp.

What the hell? The driver looks like the guy from Reno 911, the passenger is smiling, and it looks like some one left their laundry in the back seat.

I just noticed, is it me or is that female (deputy?) in the passenger seat remarkably hot?

I want to find the Judge who sent her back and get his autograph.

it's cute how you guys openly hate people who are famous for having problems. *** forbid they be human or anything. Your jealousy amuses me. But I'm sure you are all completely sane, reasonable, rational people who never, ever, have drama pop up

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Your jealousy amuses me.

I don't think it's jealousy...